[mood: optimistic ]

[music: 'Unwritten' Natasha Bedinfield]

There's A Hole in My Sidewalk
by Portia Nelson

I.
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost....I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

II.
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place.
But, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

III.
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in. It's a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault. I get out immediately.

IV.
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

V.
I walk down another street.

[mood: angry ]

[music: 'Lithium' Evanescene]

It is so true! I am so upset/sad right now. For trying to do something nice it came back and bit me in the ass HARD!!

*sigh*
( explanation )
Thanks if you read this all and if you didn't thats okay it was pretty long. I just needed to vent.

[mood: indescribable ]

[music: 'Waltz No.3 In A Minor, Op. 34, No.2' Janusz Olejniczak]

Gahh, it's so windy outside! It's kinda scary to be driving around and have the car shake from the wind *shudders*. Ugh I actually forced myself to go to the gym today after saying I was gonna go for like five days, lol. But I actually enjoyed it though the only downside was that I was a bit out of shape but that's okay it's fixable. :)

Nothing much going on besides the usually school and work. I did buy a language book a German one lol I really want to learn a new language idk why but I just picked German randomly, but since I'm so busy I've yet to actually sit down and read it. Whenever I get a chance I am going to buy the whole pack with like DVD's and CD's to really learn and get the enunciation correctly.

Well that's all for me, hope y'all are doing well. :)

ETA: When the heck does Dr. Who start I'm dying for my Doctor fix!! I've decided I need more David Tennant in my life as of now! Lol, is it April or March?

[mood: drained ]

[music: 'Masters of War' Bob Dylan]

The purpose of life is a life of purpose.

~Robert Byrne

[mood: grumpy ]

[music: 'Rehab' Amy Winehouse]

Ugh, being a girl sucks!! I don't think I've ever felt this bloated in my life! Plus I'm P.M.S'ing hardcore. But I don't want to stay at home, I want to go out, man I'm so weird. I'm so nervous because I'm moving to another bank today and it's really nerve wracking because I have no idea who the people are, whether they'll be nice, and more importantly will the supervisor be nice. Gahh, I hope so to all three! I go into work in thirty minutes, wish me luck! *crosses fingers*

P.S: And my wisdom tooth is growing in my back of my mouth and it hurts so much, my whole cheek is grr, i don't know the correct variation of this inflation. Lol, idk how to say it in English but it's hinchado in Spanish I tried to translate that online. lol. So now I can't even close my mouth or swallow. :(

[mood: pleased ]

[music: 'Hey Jude' The Beatles]

Well sorry that I couldn't update yesterday, lol don't think of me as a liar *hides*. I've just been so busy working at the bank, I usually work from eight thirty in the morning till three thirty in the afternoon and then drive to school which takes me half an hour so i get there at four, and I usually spend it at the gym, catching up with homework, and eating dinner before heading to my class at seven which i then proceed to stay until ten at night, then I drive home and get there around ten thirty/elevenish so I only have time to head to bed, wake up and start the whole day all over again. Exhausted just by reading it? Ugh, imagine living it. Tis horrible, so please excuse me when I do get a day off I spend it driving my mom around to run errands or trying to catch some zzz's.

Yeah, that's pretty much my life now and since I work at a bank I have to look nice EVERYDAY I don't mind mostly because it's fun to play dress up, but sometimes it can me effin' exhausting.

Anyhoo, I'll talk about something non-work related. Ooh well remember I had posted that I'd read the whole Twilight series? Although I was a little bit let down by their choice of 'Edward' (*cough*Robert Pattinson*cough*) don't get me wrong I think Rob is gorgeous but not Edward-gorgeous (and not to Edwardesque I guess) well now they're released some 'official' promos with all the Cullens. And I've got to say I've totally changed my mind Rob looks great! And I love Emmett hehehe, although idk about Jasper he looks too feminine for my taste I mean I get it that he has to be beautiful but his hair is completely wrong I really hope they fix it before filming.
( dazzle me )

[mood: sleepy ]

[music: 'I'll Never Fall In Love Again' Elvis Costello]


*yawn* I'm heading to bed. Just popped in to say hi, and that I'll update soon, tomorrow. I'm setting that goal for myself. No matter what, no matter how tired I am I WILL UPDATE!

[mood: full ]

[music: 'Mr. Tambourine Man' Bob Dylan]

Gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love.

~Albert Einstein

[mood: sleepy ]

[music: 'Let It Be' The Beatles]

Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.

~Confucius

[mood: exhausted ]

[music: 'A Hard Day's Night' The Beatles]

Sorry I've been MIA. I'll try to make this update quick. I got a new job yay! I work at the bank now. I've started training it lasts for one month, I've been going for three weeks barely. And that's why I haven't had time to update because I work from nine in the morning to five in the afternoon with just an hour break for lunch and I had to rearrange my school schedule to fit the training so now I'm going to night school. And most of my classes start at seven so I have just enough time to grab a bite to eat, drive to the University, find parking, and get to class.

As you can imagine I get home pretty exhausted and just want to sleep. (My classes usually end at ten or eight thirty). The bank I work at is also open in ALL holidays (even today Martin Luther King day) we only get four holidays off Christmas, Thanksgiving, New Years, and Easter.

Will try to update more on Wednesday.

Hugs and kisses. Hope you all are doing well. :)